Someone who has been having adult relationships for 15 years is going to be able to convince somebody with 0 years of adult relationships of whatever they want. Whether you feel happy or loved, eventually that power imbalance has a high chance of causing serious problems for you that you couldn’t have seen coming.

Do it if you want, but go into it knowing that you are probably just a toy and probably won’t know until you are set up for a really bad time when you finally see all the things you are currently blind to.

If you need an analogy, think about having a cooking competition between a beginner and a 15 year professional. The beginner probably has no idea how hard they are about to get smoked if they are thinking about their opponent as just another person who likes to cook.

Pamac is great too, and it can run all your updates at shutdown.